baby fever

did you know that in 1983 only 5 vaccinations were required by law, and now there are over 35? also, did you know that autism rates in 1983 were 1/10,000 and now they are 1/150?
-USA TODAY

more on this later.

so it's been 2 months since j and i have not used any protection.

i am serious when i say that i had an emotional episode when i did not get pregnant the first month. there were a couple days when i thought there had to be something wrong with me.

this, of course, comes after many years of my calmly stating to any female i came across who was having doubts of their fertility, 'oh, don't you worry, God will give you a baby in the perfect time.'

now i see how totally clueless i was.

yeah, i KNOW God's gonna give me a baby whenever he feels like it, if He feels like it at all (that's a whole other story) but that does not HELP me in this moment, thank you very much. *take a deep breath*

so yes, it's only been 2 months since the j man and i have been really open to the possibility and so we are definitely nowhere near calling the elders to pray or anything.

i'm loving everything that is baby. also trying to help motivate my hubby to start making baby clothes and pregnancy paraphernalia for when i am 'with child.' he's got some great ideas for clothes and such. just gotta strap him to his sewing machine. all he really wants to do is make music, or something silly about 'a record deal' or whatever....

anyway, this coming week i'm getting started at my new job. gonna start training brains. pretty intense stuff but it's guaranteed to work. i have a feeling it does cuz after my 2 days of training i didn't have to use my cell phone calculator to add up my groceries. miracles!

hoping this job will free me up to pursue some things i'm interested in. like learning more about the autism epidemic and what i can do to help families who want to pursue healing. also helping families understand what their choices are with delaying vaccinations and administering them more conservatively.